used of You......................

hey we are back. we got home about 4:30 ish on friday. we had a great trip. it rained alot but just at the right times to cool off the heat of the day. sea world was great and so was the river walk. we took our kids to the imax. they loved it and so did i. it was a refreshing family time. hannah and rebekah are funny so we had alot of laughs. i have alot of pictures that i will down load later. hannah took my camera batteries to listen to her c.d. player on the way home and i have not gotten them back from her.

i have always loved my girls, but i do find that the older they get the more i enjoy spending time with them. please don't take that the wrong way, its just as they get older there is a whole world that you get to experience with them and through their eyes. i am a blessed woman. our relationships finds new territory on a daily basis. and that is exciting to me. i find myself often reflecting on what God holds in store for them and doing alot of praying.

my children complete me. they make me proud to be a mother. i know it is truly only God that completes us, so please understand what i am trying to say. a mother is supposed to love her children, but i find myself falling in love with them more and more everyday. everyday i find simplistic joy in just being with them and watching them grow into the blossoming young ladies that God has intended them to be and i am thankful that i am a part of it. i find that i am truly in the will of God when i am mothering them. that may sound silly, but that is how i feel.

today i was searching the scriptures to quiet my spirit and i stumbled across these scriptures: i am currently studying Philippians and the psalms. here is what i read today.
The Lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger
and rich in love. The Lord is good to all, he has compassion
on all He has made. The Lord is near to all who call on Him,
to all who call on Him in truth. He fulfills the desires of all
who fear Him; he hears their cry and saves them. The Lord watches
over all who love him. Psalm: 145

Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I say rejoice. Let your
gentleness be know to all mankind.

i am beginning a new quest in my life. i have just finished reading the second book in the series, and i am so moved. the main character in the book has endured horrific things and she (even though fictitious) has made a huge impact on my life. she never returned an unkind word or thought towards others that were horrible to her and even tried to end her life. she had absolute faith in Christ. she knew that all things work together to the glory of God. my new quest is to be such a blessing to everyone i am around and know. to love everyone as Christ loves them. i want to become a selfless person. to always put others needs and wants ahead of my own. i want to have such a servants heart.i want to love those that don't love me. i want to bless those who haven't been blessed in a life time. i want to be friend the friendless. i know this is a life long mission and the goal may not be reached until i enter heaven. i want Jesus to fill me with such peace and joy that it is automatically imparted to others i come in contact with. i want to not grow weary in doing good for in due time a crop will be harvested. i want to be instant in season and out of season. Jesus i ask that you go before me and lead the way my heart is so willing but my flesh is so stubborn. i thank you that nothing is impossible with You. My constant abiding love.