i don't know how, i don't know where, i don't know when....

as the news of our moving has gotten out, i have had so many people ask me how i feel about it. for a first time in my life, i truly understand what it talks about in scripture when it says, be anxious for nothing, but by prayer and supplication, make your requests know to God and the peace which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds forever. i can truly answer people and say that i am at peace.

do you notice that the word doesn't tell us that the peace sits in our mind and hearts, or lays in our hearts and minds. that would be passive peace. but God's peace is pro-active. His peace GUARDS our hearts and minds. a guard stands watch over who he is protecting, always looking, always ready to do battle for his comm rads. i am a living example of this. Please do not mis-understand, i am not being braggadocios, or conceited, i just feel like for once in my life, i have a grasp on one verse, or principal from the word. IT IS ALL GOD. my normal fleshly nature is to freak, panic, try to control everything, worry, fret. and i am not saying that i won't have periods of this, sometime before we move. i am not saying that i won't shed tears or look at my precious family and feel incredibly sad. or be sitting in church on a sunday morning and feel so lonely, i want to just run out of church, because i know soon i will have to look for another church family. but for this time, and this place, i am at perfect peace. God is truly in control. i feel as if He is holding my heart and my mind in the palm of His hands.

i also believe that because He is helping me be at such peace with all of the changes that are taking place in my life, that my girls are at peace too. they seem to be excited.

i don't know where we will move, or where i will teach, or where my girls will go to school, or where we will live. i just know that there is nothing i can do about it today. so i might as not allow the enemy to have any ground and try to ruin any part of my life. God is strengthening me. i can feel it. daily as i sit with Him, He gives me such peace. i asked Him the first night that david was gone to be my husband, to sleep with me during the night so that i could rest. i so want to be an awesome mommy and daddy to my girls when david is gone. i felt His presence in the room more than i usually do. thank you, Jesus.

i may not know what is going to happen today, tomorrow, but i know God is holding my hand and helping me take my life right now, one day at a time.

Peace, Peace, wonderful Peace, coming down from the Father above. Watch over my spirit and love me i pray, in fathomless billows of love.

The Bible says that we are to pursue peace. Jesus help me to continue to seek You above anything or anyone else.

i don't know how, i don't know where, i don't know when. BUT I KNOW WHO!!!!!
and for now that is all i need to know.